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BLOG OFFICIAL REOPENING

2010-08-13T01:00:00.002+08:00

OMG...looking at the last post.It is just amazing that i haven blog for more than 3 years!!!! Haha..i wonder what had made me stop to blog the last time but nevertheless i decided to revive this blog. I shall continue my legacy, stories, feelings, thoughts and any bimbotic comments. Yup no one can stop. As singapore declare the opening ceremony of YOG, i will declare the re-opening of my blog.

Ok i know this blog skins is abit gay.. but i chose this when i was 17. now i am...17 stiiilll...so be it..haha

2007-02-19T23:17:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ! @^#&*^*!^#

COME EVERYONE, married ones give ang bao! haven married ones give ur parent's ang bao..HAHA...

happy new year sia... wah..long time nv come here...srry ppl...i have disappeared becos i was too busy wif cny stuff lar.. got sch performance.. then very hectic..still have to do spring cleaning myself leh! lols.. cos parents not in sgp, so ar..mus do it myself..m i very wei da?? HAHA..

cny is such a great festive thingy.. cos the thing is that i can gather with my relative and of cos. gather lots of angbao..lols.. its also great time to forget all my unhappy/unknown/weird memories... most importantly... i will...EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT

FAV FOOD ----------------- 1) BAK GUA! LOLS...

2) pineapple tarts

3) love letter (of cos..if u ppl wan to give the real love letter also can lar..HAHA)

4) kueh bankit

5) sweets!

6) YU SHENG...

well... beside... i had also a day to rmb 17-2-07...it was so unforgettable sia..lols..love it...

(not gona tok abt it..MUAHAHA)

recently..i had a tiff with my friend..i hope..everything will be alright... oh well..cny...mus tok abt happy things!

so..chinese new year resolution:

i wish tat all good friends..... will FA DA CAI! lols...have more money and allowance!

also also wish that everyone will pass their exams with flying colours

and lastly..very important... wish everyone to have good health..

yup..tats all! HAPPY CNY!

pics of the day!

2007-01-28T21:18:00.000+08:00

Need some time to recover some a devastating shock...

which i dunno wat happen?

what i have done wrong?

end of the story--

maybe i nid to do some soul-searching.. where is my soul? i tot still in bishan wad? lols... maybe tats why i felt so lost bah... but heck lar.. life sux these days...but not overall though.. there are still good friends like ray... who has drilled a hole in my wallet during his bdae...HAHAHAA.. jus kidding... u are still my good friend.. and of cos.. yong hui which will brighten my day during co.. and the rest of the ppl who have play a very significant role in my life..

aniwae i m so super stressed with sch stuff..not onli hmk but with cca.. why is there so many things for mi to do?? teach ppl play erhu.. songs..and my golden ricebowl has been taken away by...MISS ZHU..DAMM U.. i will rmb this okay!!! ARGGH.. now ppl dun regard mi as the student conductor anymore... but rather treat her like the main conductor...

i m so stupid lar.. care so much about other stuff.. until my own rice bowl also kenna taken away..haiz.. DESPICABLE MISS ZHU... if u dare to take another step further.. I SLASH U INTO THOUSAND PIECES! arghh...

aiya..dun tok abt her already.. another tragedy gona happen... mama gona be gone soon... VERY SOON ..i mean..she gona leave s'pore soon to join daddy in china.. and accompany bro in aust.. SOBXX.. i cant enjoy my days anymore...

i had to..

cook myself..

iron my own clothes..

wash my own clothes..

tidy the hse...

wash the dish..

AIYA...means life is all alone lar..

SOBX..

why cant she hire a cecillia or maria for mi?

lols... anyway...ya...tats all...life is getting stressful...

2007-01-23T22:08:00.000+08:00

ARHHHH!!!!

i m so stressed these days... so many things..

i m goin crazy... srry ppl.. will defintely blog soon....

i also wan the time to blog .. but got to do gp hmk...

2007-01-06T16:33:00.000+08:00

i kenna tiok the stupid flu virus! (not the bird flu lar...) now got fever... very sad...

annyooneee??????????????

save mi....

care for mi

concern abt mi...

cheer mi up?

lols...i guess who will be so bu yao lian to ask tis kind of things... lols... but i really nid it...

2007-01-03T23:40:00.000+08:00

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!!

i didnt noe it was so tiring...

the whole day was at first so fantastic when i saw the time table - 12pm end sch! but....nid to wait for cca at 3pm.... then go home at 6pm...come back home like pig... damm wad lah.. today saw my classmates..lols..all still the same.. i was really happy to see them again. aniwae..nth change except for some teachers i think..

first bad news...TEST TEST TEST! - chem test......wa kao..so fast.. and counted for block test 1

now i have onli one week time to prepare..nidda chiong chiong...

and also to complete the holiday assignment which i dun wan to do!!! SOBX

aniwae..my co got some bad news.. conductor tiok cancer, ask teacher..she say is the pancrease part (lol..duno how to spell) .... aniwae..i hope he is alrite..afterall..he is the one who impart mi basic conducting skills.. i hope he will be fine and healthy again...

since there is no conductor..who conduct leh? of cos is mi....... which i dun really wan to do the job..cos its like..i m playing the role of a bad guy.. sianx.. i dun really like to force ppl to do things which they dun like...but it seems that my job requires mi to do tat..

haiz... but no choice lah...have to solve all this prob...

tis is life man! LOLS... i love it.......

pics of the day!

have u guys seen the curse of the golden flower? ITS SO COOL...except for jay chou's acting (no offence) lols.. i jus love the forbidden city palace...its so nice in the movie... but i went there once b4...it looks like shit...LOLS

2006-12-19T16:08:00.000+08:00

FINALLY! I CHANGED MY BLOG SKIN! MUAHAHAHA..

at least give it a new look b4 christmas...

phew..holidays.. i have been slacking...LOLS... starting on hmk liao.. this holis is so crazy, many things to do.. outing, stuff like tt. Most imptly, i got some good friends to accompany mi. I serious hate christmas shopping..lols.. cos its like mus be so ma fan to think of something to buy for ppl... lols.. and eventually i will find my wallet got a big hole..haha..

why has it been raining these days? other countries snowing while singapore raining for christmas season.. siao liao...aniwae my dad gona come back soon! i jus cant wait when he bring back all the goodies..LOLS... and take us for our holis...YEA!

next year gona be a hard year lo... everyone gona be gone..like for many years.. LEFT MI ALONE! SOBX.. mum going to china, dad china, brother aust for study, second bro philipines for business... and mi IN SINGAPORE! JIAT SAI AR! haiz... why mi alone.. how m i gona survive leh? nvm..i jus wish this christmas i got lots of lots of goodies and money to kope from my mum and dad before they go...LOLS..haha..i m so cheapskate...

pics of the day!

Any one of u heard of the Hong kong tycoon who ordered the 14 royce rolls which cost abt 3 plus millions each? OMG...if i can get my hands on one these toys..! I WILL GO CRAZY...

my dream car..- royce rolls...

so nice!~~~

2006-12-14T23:58:00.000+08:00

who? what? when? where? how?

so many questions..in my mind now.. wat is happening? i wish i had the answer to everything... i guess i m not special enuff.. not good enuff... no different to others.. tok to mi when u wan to..

disappeared*

2006-12-01T17:48:00.000+08:00

Pain. Dread. Melancholy. Anger. Dejection. Disappointment.

first... i was very angry of myself yesterday. made someone suffer becos of mi. i shouldnt act so impulsively without processing the consequences in my brain. i felt so extremely guilty and desperate cos i couldnt do anything at the point of emergency... seeing the person so impatient.. i felt even more guilty...i m really sorry...

second... i was very disappointed with someone today... i think from now onwards..i shouldnt.. interact with u more.. cos i think the sight of u...made mi feel so disgusted! dun think that i pretend nth has happen means that i m not angry with u anymore.. U ARE WRONG.. and a piece of advice to u.. stop acting cute when u don even have the ability to act cute.. or should i say it makes mi feel more disguested with ur poor acting cute skills? you are lucky enuff to have someone shield u today.. but a piece of advice to u? GROW UP! u cant always have ppl helping u...

this post is jus about mi being very emo... no details of the things happen...

2006-11-15T21:00:00.000+08:00

the nightmare is finally over..

i bled for hours.. i cried for hours... and the pain still lingers....

first... i went to have a CT scan... and three tooths were discovered underneath my gum.. eating away the roots of the healthy set of teeths.. i was totally dismayed..and shocked when i saw the x-ray..

second, doctor say what to choose "put to sleep? or anesthetic?" i choose anesthetic... and he gave mi 8 injections!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ouch...

i was like screaming in MORTAL ANGONY when he plunged the needle into my gums and cheeks! 2 injections for the inner wisdom and 6 injections for the outer ones..

but these were jus the beginning of the nightmare..

He drilled the teeths until the last one....and when he plucks out all 3 teeths.. CAN U IMAGINE I WAS like... "jus end my life!!!" FREAKING PAINFUL!!!! even with the effect of the anesthetic...omg..

after that.. when the operation is over... i went home to rest on bed...

this is the nightmare climax ... as the anesthetic effect is over... i was like... crying... cos the pain was super super super super super super super super super super super
unimaginably...excruciating...

all 3 wounds pain at the same time... and i spilt out blood...and bled like nobody business... i rmb i was so mad...and crazy that i tore my blood-stained bedsheet cos of the immense pain...

and i cried all the way... i noe man shouldnt cry or wad... but...anyone who experiences this..if u dun cry i gave u 100 bucks.. omg.. i was tear-ing uncontrollably...

now my mouth is full of stiches... and i cant tok much...mouth can onli extend to a certain length..

and...all i can eat for 5 days is porridge!!! sobx..

ANYONE SAVES MI!!!

2006-11-14T00:27:00.000+08:00

srry ppl..long time nv blog le..

argh!!! jus cant blame... too many things to do... and i wish to have a proper vacation... spend time with those ppl i feel i worth to spend time with... lols..

ya..aniwae... too busy with cca.. project work.. and too stressed also.. to my dental operation day is jus one more day left!! means one more day to live.. to be honest..i VERY SCARED dentist..lols.. oops.. see lar..i exposed one of my secrets...lols..

jus hope i can recover soon.. and spend quality with..ppl , friends and loved ones... arggh!! i will blog more 2mr..promise..lols..

cya guys..

2006-10-29T13:37:00.000+08:00

YEA! our class FIRST EVER BBQ cum FIRST EVER major outing! can u believe it.. after so many mths... lols.. but it was fun though... we go miss huang hse to hold the bbq. But it wasnt really lucky for mi....lols.. cos when i go there..

the first bad thing ever happen there is that i FELL DOWN...sobx.. and i injured my right arm.. BURN a part of my arm... omg lar.. hope it will have no scar... lols..

then second thing is when i BBq-ing the food.. it was very hot and i accidentally "KIAP" my hand with the "kiaper.." - haha... cos i duno wats that call..so call it the kiaper..lols.. but it was painful also..

then later jarryl itchy hand... open the pot of curry.. and duno how to close it back... in the end.. have to close it back myself..and stained my shirt with some curry..

EXTREMELY bad luck...

aniwae. i brought my ps2 tat day... tat time i was hoping that everyone will have lots of fun... and in the first part..everyone was laughing and playing very vigorously..in the first game.. i was really happy when everyone was having lots of fun in the first part.. then later we decided to go out to play pool at cuppage, saw lots of AH BENGs..haha! so fun.. but as u noe.. that day wasnt really my day...lols.. so i sux at every game.. BLEH~~

then later we all go home lor...

TADDAH! i blog finished! haha... i will definitely blog more..

2006-10-17T21:31:00.000+08:00

OMG... i have not blog like ten days? time to start writing liao!

kao.. i have been witnessing most of my friends getting so damm good results.. gonna faint lar..haha. aniwae, congrats to them. my results aint so fantastic, nidda try harder next year lor..
some of my classmates were quite cham, trying to escape the clutches of retainment. i jus hope they can make it...

aniwae, phew.. open house has been finally over.. mi and my friends were trying to form a band incollaboration with chinese orchestra. A east meets west kind of band. interesteing huh? erhu, yangqin, dizi, electric guitar, xylophone/ keyboards, percussion and other intruments. A oriental mixure lar! ..lols.. but it was quite an experience, i can tell u basking isnt a fun thing, my friends and mi were like playing since morning to very late afternoon... play until my fingers were like... burnt... its actually mi and my friend jordan's idea to form this kind of band.. initially it was quite fun lar..but later..it was torturing.. organising and writing scores..is so damm tiring and brain-wrecking.. our band even receive weird comment from principal, "eh? how can so kelong (cheating) one! why got this kind of instrument one?" omg.. lar.. she is really so old-biang lar! i hope next time cca orientation can perform better...then attract lots of ppl..lols

plus...the haze...OMG LAR.... i hate it man...

Before...

After...

oh well time to get into serious blogging..

today i m gona tok judging ppl...

Honestly, i hate ppl who judge ppl thru their looks.. Beautiful ppl = personalities? heaven is fair.. today i got a friend who is so ... i dun wan to say.. but i jus hate her.. we were toking abt movies..then she says "if u treat mi i go lor"... i was like..how bout payin half of ticket money? she replied, "aniwae who wans to go out with you?" in a veri scarcastic tone.. i can onli think about..... "wat a biatch" ... well, this is actually not a good example to illustrate my point... but i jus can sense.. her arrogance ..u noe those only beautiful ppl goes out with beautiful ppl, rich ppl goes out with rich ppl, high class match upper class.

i mean why ppl are gettin so.. judgmental? so fussy?

- "that guy is so gay! yucks, don ever go out with him"

-"aiyo...why u go out with these kind of ppl??? HE IS A INDIAN / MALAY U NOE?"

-"omg lar! he's so cheena lar! are u out of ur mind?"

i have heard lots of these comments from ppl who are abit above average looking.. so wad if u are nice-looking than them? so wad if u are in a clique of ppl who are so gorgeous and beautiful looking? many have really really really....missed out the inner qualities that most ppl possessed...

wat ppl mostly do...

- Stereotypes
In our society, beauty gives us many advantages such as having a good social life, making friends, get beautiful gf or bf, or got ppl whistle at u while u walk by. Whenever, we look at good-looking guys and girls, we usually form stereotypes. We mostly think he or she is a good and kind person. so wad are u waiting for? breast enchancement, or go for a botox treatment lar? maybe it can perk u up abit.. haha

- Criticise
ugly ppl are mostly the jokes of the century... or potential laughing stock for others... some were born ugly and some were lazy to style themselves up.. the rich get richer, the ugly get uglier, cos u noe... ugly ppl mix with ugly ppl.. i got a friend who is quite below average looking (not criticising him...lols) is always mistaken as stalker..molester, when sit inside lecture hall, the gal who sit beside him will try to exhibit discomforting gesture or even exhange sit with others. pitiful sia... can really go and kill urself suan le bah...

i also dunno why i m blogging abt this..lols.. perharps i m quite angry and perturbed with today's incident.. well i jus wanna say that.. ppl.. try not to judge ppl thru their physical qualties..

and to the person who had offend mi today..."You're not perfect. Neither am I. Yet it is this which makes each and everyone one of us unique. We have our own flaws, our own characteristics, our own idiocyncrasies. If you have a problem with me then I really wish that you'll learn one day that the world is full of different types of people and that you won't end up liking everyone just like how people will end up disliking you yourself." -adapted from someone

pics of the day! (from the show Princess hour.. quite popular)

oh well.. i try to blog more, Cya guys!

2006-10-08T23:04:00.000+08:00

Omg.. i like this movie so much - Rob-B-Hood...

i watched it today...and its like so nice.. the baby in the story is like so cute and adorable!!!! omg.. first time watch movie being so engrossed with it.. cos the movies i watched previously are quite sucky..lols..

i would rate it 5/5... really mus watch...

here are some pics!

today is quite an enjoyable day...
after promos.. really should take a well-deserved break..

no toking abt exams,
no subject discussion,

only play

play!

and play!!!

lalala... =)

2006-10-07T00:27:00.000+08:00

ONE MONTH OF HELL TORTURE... MUGGING+STUPID PROMO... has already ended.

i can finally heaved a sigh of relief.. after being physically and mentally tormented for so long.. jc is really no joke.. although i try my very best in everything, but still have regrets. i don think i have perform up to my standard.. The papers are really tough.... whether is maths chem or physics, teachers are really mad.. to set this kind of paper..

not only that, i received quite a few "bad" news from my family.. don really wish to share it here.. till now only tell one person.. jus tt it was really stressful for mi to hang in there... i was like almost die out of exhaustion and mental breakdown.. worse than being suffocated by the haze..

and...worse thing is ...i have slim down... lost a few weight...which i m so sad... plus i didnt visit gym for quite a few period.. its really hard to mi to gain few weight in like two mth... and i lost it so quickly within one week.. all becos of..STRESS STress...

anyway.. i really appreciated those who come for today's outing!!! really thanks alot ppl... - Melissa,
Cindy,
Jarryl,
Arthur,
Edmund and
Farhan

i think u all are the ones who have the most class spirits! really.. 06S12 is really kinda of disappointing.. some ps, some lazy, some like to come up with excuses, and some with no reply at all.. i try all my best to organise today's outing..and u guys have made it possible... thanks..

today we eat at crystal jade...lols at taka, really nice noodle, and the Xiao Long Bao! haha.. really nice. quite full and affordable too.. haha..although farhan can only watch us eat cos he jus break fast and has eaten... beside its pork! lols.. but he still made his effort to come down and join our dinner.. really commendable...

then after that walk around, farhan shop for bks and lastly...we played pool! quite fun lor! although long time nv play le.. but my skills is not yet rusty..lols.. we did enjoy our time there.. and farhan was there ..haha..complaining that he ran out of luck.. lols..keep losing until the last match.. haha..

oh well... i m now tired..really tired... nidda rest.. will blog more soon.. promise

breakup

2006-09-16T00:04:00.000+08:00

Haha.. so long nv blog le. srry ppl. no more toking, i will go straight in blogging.

today i gona tok abt breakup. Lols.. interesting huh? though i m not an expert but i'll try

I heard alot of breakup stories from all my friends. From my experience (not the experience of mine! haha..) ,basically i analyse it into Top 5 different categories. (reasons for breakup)

1) SUDDEN DISAPPEARANCE

One of the most strange and weird reasons for breakup.
Reasons for disapperance for guys

Found a new lover (one leg step onto two boats)
no money to spend on gf
Pre-occupied with work
she's too ugly/fat/irritating
made the wrong choice (er..not my type)
found out that there is a ugly mole on her butt
she smokes
realised that she is so much older
play play for fun.

gals wil start to believe they are gone for good roughly after abt 3 to 7 days. so if ur bf start neglecting you..jus forget it, he's not interested in you at all

2) OPPOSING PERSONALITIES

she is too hot for you? u are the yin and she is the yang?haha.. for the relationship to last, both wavelength must be the same... if not, you will realised the other partner would swallow you up oneday. Since men and women think differently, act differently and even argue differently, things can get lost in translation. When they do, she ends up crying and you end up confused. there are actually successful cases of BGR with ppl of opposing personalites/ character but don pin so much hope...i suggest might as well break up.haha! cos u gona have a hard time "letting" him/her, eventually u will go mad oneday...

E.gs - "Dear! u know you are very inconsiderate! i already try very hard to be understanding but u always don spare a thought for mi onnneee!! -gal

"not happy ar? break up lor" -guy

... ya...the gal should break up with him

3) I THINK YOU WILL GET A BETTER GUY/GAL NEXT TIME

oh pls! this is wad century liao!

"really, i don think i can give you happiness, wo pei bu shang ni, i cannot "watever" you forever. i think u can find a better guy/gal than mi lor! so bye bye!"

- sounds like an EXCUSE more than a reason right? totally agree.... u noe this like a very nice way of acting yourself to be a good guy/ character? and jus kiss ur ass and say goodbye..lols.. in wat way can a person rebutt to this kind of reason? He/she is jus a useless piece of shit who can nicely push the blames on his/her disability of providing happiness or wateva shit. its jus very irritating. wat a jerk right? - gals . wat a bitch right? - guys. aiya. might as well break cos no matter how hard you persuade or convince, he's jus wanna dump u. cruel..yes.. jus accept it! haha..

4) I DONT LOVE YOU ANYMORE

The most heart-breaking reason of all centuries ever.. of cos the person before saying "i dont love you anymore" will also say plenty crap first lah.. say wad like" i suddenly don have "feel" for you leh?" chinese saying "chang tong bu ru duan tong"...lols..means short term pain is better than long term pain. it somehow linked to the 3rd reason. why so heart-breaking? becos it can jus shut the other opponent's mouth instantly. what can u say to ur lover when she/he says don love you anymore? nothing right? stupid ppl will say "really meh? bluff mi one right?" so wad to do next? Break lah!

Forcing to be together is no happiness. so ya...accept the fate bah.. u may love him/her deeply but wats the point? doing wateva things really really wun do much effect, so jus give up man! haha..

5) PSLE / OLEVEL/ ALEVEL/ POLY/ ARMY/ UNIVERSITY/ ITE

hehe.. my study more impt, in other words "u are second priority to mi"..

many breakups are also due to exams and study... cos devotion in relationsips will really cause lack of time for other stuff such as studying. "maybe after olevel, i look for u?" haha! this is a quite dumb statement.. trust mi, there wun be... and btw when one really go and look for the person, the "feel" may be gone too. so chances of being together? less than 10%

ARMY is the worst thing ever for guys.. do u think the gal will wait for u for like 2 years? no way man! wait for the sky fall down..also wun happen. i don think ppl will that kind of patience. loyalty? no...omg.. in this century there is no such word in the love dictionary liao... my bro lost its 4 yr relationships gf becos of that. wanna be smart? find after ur army..haha! if ur gf can really wait... i think u can consider marrying her liao...cos this kind of gals have already extinct millions years ago. those are rare-species..lols.. so think thrice before u act.

so this is all the top 5 reasons, which category do u fall under? haha..i m so evil

Breakup survival skills

lols..i m not an expert here. but jus wanna suggest sth. take a look at the statement below

I'm cured, sterilized from your love and finally at peace. I no longer miss you and no longer love you. Yet I still wait for you my love, every minute that I live, every hour of the day, every day of the month and every month of the year."

that sounds contradicting but it can be achieve... btw to all ppl out there... this kind of case, chances of patching can be as low as like? 10 %..realli realli no hope.. trust mi

Why issit so difficult to get over a breakup? it may last for years..maybe.. for months.. and not days.. but why? (apply to those who love its partner deeply)

ppl are just not being able to let go of false hope. Most people are stuck in limbo with the idea that there might be a chance of getting back together with their gf/bf.

The result of such beliefs is a double-edged rejection sword. This person actually inflicts prolonged and repetitive pain. First comes the initial sting originating from the breakup itself. Then comes the gut-wrenching, heart-breaking hope that he/she will return, and eventually the realization that she does not regret leaving you -- and she is gone for good.

cruel huh? but this is really true..

All this pain could be kept short and sweet if a guy/gal would just learn to accept the decision made by his "new" ex and move on with his life. By waiting around and hoping, a man/women is trapping himself/herself in an endless circle of torture.

whether is my own experience or other experience.. tis is all i wanted to share with u guys. haha.. to those whose hearts are being broken, don be sad, tomorrow will be a better day for u.

2006-09-05T22:44:00.000+08:00

sobx...there is no ppl tagging my blog...aww... oh well.. aniwae, today is quite weird.

cos i didnt really have much sleep - 2 hrs. can u believe it? omg..i was rushin my gp essay VERY early in the morning... yesterday i was feelin low.. and jus nice my friend steiner, called in the middle of the night say.. "wanna study together now?" i was quite shocked at the "now" word.. lols.. haha..cos it is roughly at 1.30am in the morning. but it wasnt a mugging opportunity for mi..lolz.. it was jus emo-laxing thingy cos i didnt bring any books or pens..lolz.

my first time sneaking out of the house so late..haha! can u imagine i walk on the road all the way to mac...omg.. there was no car lar.. the street was so deserted.. haha. cool..cos everything looks like resident evil..lolz.. u can like do wateva u wan on the street..lolz..jus don let those occasionally speeding cars knock u down.. aniwae.. ya.. chat and chat and chat ..eat and eat and eat.. then we went to the playground..lolz.. and sit on the swing.. like small little kids. actually rite.. i initially tot it will be quite weird.. but i feel that anyone can really tok their hearts out in this kind of situation... very nice way to relaxing in the middle of the night...lolz all the way till almost 4.50am.. lolz..total crazi-ness

slept for 2 hrs. 7.00am..and i rush my gp essay to 8.30am, pack everything and eat a 1 min breakfast and chiong to sch for lesson at 9. ULTRA boring sia.. lesson ended at 4.30om..

a feeling of nostagia is coming back... i hate it man.. cos will be missing someone so badly.. duno y.. oh well..

2006-09-01T23:57:00.000+08:00

don ever watch the devil wears prada...

omg.. it is a waste of money and time.

the whole movie was like so borrrriiiiiing and......draggy. rating? 2 stars ** / 5 stars*****

today was a damm boring day as usual... i wanted to go out with somebody... but it is like impossible... reason.. duno y. today i saw my friend, ray. he's having a good life sia... he's having good time with his two good female friends. well well well, lolz.. kinda felt bad... its like u see ur friend doing so well...while u are in a sad plight/situation.

i dun wanna feel emo again.. no pt lar.

There's people talking. They talk about me. They know my name, they think they know everything. But they don't know anything about me. - song by hilary duff

it really reflects what i m feeling right now. plus, whenever i wan somebody to know something, it always fails. either that somebody nv care or.... doesnt even know anything abt it at all. recently, i m also quite mad abt somebody.. my friend overheard a conversation and told mi that it was abt mi, ******* said that "aiya..that seng yong always nv do anything or bring anything" is that wad others think abt mi? is that the impression i m always giving to others? BIATCH! wat the hell... i m always doing sth and i got bring my stuff.. to whoever the person is... i noe who u are.. STOP ACTING LIKE YOU KNOW ABT MI! fish! u don even know a single thing! arghh... u noe i was quite irritated by this kind of ppl..totally can tell them to get lost.. i rather be alone then mixing with this bunch of .....

totally gettin tired...gona sleep..ZZZzzzz

2006-08-28T00:16:00.000+08:00

On Hiatus

Due to certain reasons, i need to be away. destress, emo-laxing and mainly escapism.
How long? duno..

depends on how the situation unfolds.

i create hope, who took away?
i wish, who doesnt wish?
i give, who don feel?
i sacrifice, who enjoy?
i weep, who laugh?

self-willingness expects nth in return. yet, a feeling of dejection? why?

2006-08-27T04:04:00.000+08:00

i waited for a person for a night...again

didnt sleep a wink..

its almost daylight soon...

as if the person will be touched..

nah...

this is self willingness

A test on my patience

6 + 6 = 12 hrs...

not bad.. half a day,

but i cant hold on any further...

so pls.. see that corner over there?

i m gona die on the spot..

2006-08-26T15:24:00.000+08:00

An echo fades into the night,

an eerie mournful sound.

A shooting star disappears from sight,

and I crumble to the ground.

There is no life within this garden;

my sobs are the only sound.

I have poisoned the honeyed fountain

where your love and passion could be found.

I stare at the stars above,
my grieving howls always fill the night
I remember how it used to be when we shared our fears and delights.
You are a treasured friend to me.
How can I make things right?

Feeling afraid, cold and lonely,
I long to tell someone how I feel,
but no one want to hear mi.
The old wounds show symptoms of reappearance
The pain for you is much too real.
Should I back away and build a wall and block away how I feel?
Yes i should..

Delta Goodrem - Lost Without You (World Music Awards 2005)

*emo + stressed + confused* mode...

no use being emo too.. which i have been doing all the time..

2006-08-23T21:39:00.000+08:00

OK OK OK! wait!!! don divert your attention to other blog or other things!

i know joakim (left) really sux... cant really sing to save his own life.. blah blah blah.. i noe u all wan him out..haha

but i find that he is quite pretty amazing..able to survive in the top 6 of sing idol. really commendable..

to be honest, if i put myself in his shoes, i may probably pick the highest building in singapore and jump off from there.. imagine 75% of singaporeans bombarded you with so much negative comments , criticism, slammings, i bet u wun be able to take that blow.. i watched the sing idol today and ken lim said "SHHH! can i have some moments of silence? ok joakim.. i think this quietness is better than the noise that comes out from your mouth." wow! pretty insulting huh?
and i heard one voice in the tv "BU HAO TING"..omg.. imgaine u are singing and ppl say its nt nice....here again, another blow for him to take on...i bet he will crying afterwards... haha

i watched him sing like a monkey.. nice face but too bad.. vocal cannot make it! EVEN I CAN SING BETTER THAN HIM! haha.. he is really not my singapore idol but.. he is my role model, another form of idol.. i think his "hack care wad others said" attitude is actually wad i really admire.. and he still can continue to bring his "passion" on stage despite his cmi vocal.. i honestly admit that i don have such qualities.. i take in negative comments/seriously.. some ppl may say "sticks and stones would hurt them but not words", i m like the opposite..

from last mth to this mth, i received like ger-zillions insults from friends/classmates...and family? i don actually have to care...jus like joakim.. being able to put aside all the shameless comments directed at him.. that is really one thing i have to praise him.. (not his singing of cos lah! lolz..) and one thing i have to learn from him . btw, oh well, tats abt it..tadah!

i love walkin in the rain.. cos nobody will know i m crying..

Is he really that cute? judge it urself..

2006-08-21T23:45:00.000+08:00

Jessica Simpson - A Public Affair

Video of the day!! i like this song..quite cute.. but the MV abit..er..? bimbo? hot? haha..dunno

TIME TO BLOCK! oops... blog ..haha..

today p.e was so fun lah... i cant believe i score a pt. for the rugby game...lolz. nobody tagged mi! haha..and i jus run past the people at amazing speed.. woots! goal! i nv so actively partcipate in PE b4 lah...lolz.. so i jus pia and do my best..lolz.. well.. tats was fun for the morning part. then it came to the lecture part...lolz.. omg.. totally can sleep... cos the lecturer was SO BORING! totally wanna sleep... BUT! omg... miraculously i didnt sleep! haha.. listening to lecture..

today was jus normal and pleasant day...lolz.. i meet up my pri cum sec cum jc friend, ray.. kaoz.. like wait for him for like 3h 15 mins in the afternoon? but i didnt actually waste my time lar.. mug for 3 h 15 mins lor.. then we go secret recipe and study until 9pm..eat the cheese cake there also..haha..mice.. thanks to him, i managed to clear some chemisty doubts.. wa.. organic chem is really irritating.. so many things to memorise.. and wed is chemistry lecture test liao...i jus dun wanna flunk it... jus wanna score a decent marks for it. that will be good..lolz

well..today is quite a rewarding day.. nv wasted my time..lolz.. now i damm tired sia.. trying to type this blog... but somehow no fans leh! omg...haha... ppl! pls tag! haha... i m so thick-skin..

these few days i try not to tok to one of my friend who is having exams..lolz.. this is not dao but jus wanna give him full concentration to mug..haha ..Muahahah.. see how considerate i m..lolz.. actually i jus scared that i will say sth that may suddenly affect his mood..lolz..cos i always tok crap/rubbish..or sth which is unpleasant to his ears.. words don get processed by the brain before leaving my mouth ..so better play safe.. let him have some peaceful and quiet moment and 100% concentration for his exams.. really hope he will obtain his GPA 3.5 or 3.7.. lolz.. will definitely pray hard for him.

2006-08-19T22:28:00.000+08:00

haha.. today my computer power unit short-circuit... totally saw it explode..lolz. i have to carry it to the repair shop to repair.. kaoz.. spent my $35 bucks...on the power box.. xianz.. totally moneyless. the man at the computer shop tell mi to be mentally prepared cos if the sparks created from the short-circuit thingy got damaged the motherboard..i can buy a new computer liao..lolz. lucky...it nv happen.. actually all is my fault.. i on the computer and went to sleep..yesterday haha!

today was jus a normal day.. have cca in the morning. everyone was so xianz xianz.. and of cos the "xianz virus" had spread to mi too. very lazy sia... i try blowing the flute in the cca room..haha.. almost fainted.. totally out of breath. cant believe ppl can hold their breath for so long. haha..

aniwae.. my brother brought his "fat" gf to home.. wa kao...she wear the low low skirt and jean...omg.. totally er...haha... duno how to describe. u noe... those figures like buffalos, legs like tree trunks..haha! omg..i m so evil..btw.. i shouldnt judge ppl so much.. lolz..its wrong aniwae. but i always have this habit.. haha can say is gifted. i think that only thru others ppls' comments and criticisms, one will then improves its appearance or watever things. its all right to criticise but it wrong to insult. criticise and insults are really two diff things.

aiya..actually today not much to blog.. gona start mugging 2mr le.. cos others have long time started le..lolz.. wun lose to them de! haha.. ok

I am sorry...

2006-08-17T23:29:00.000+08:00

today...i felt really very bad. i have made my most trusted friend really ultra angry.. there is really no pt having deep grudges abt my sad life or wad.. i have ultimately disappoint my friend who not onli almost everyday console/cheer mi up keep mi acompany for many mths and days... i can really sense that he hates mi...for the reason that i irritated him with lots of complains abt my life and scarastic remarks abt stuffs around mi.. it seems that i treated him like a person which i can vent my anger on.. of cos he got sick and tired of my complains... i have really crossed his tolerance levl today..and made him real angry.. i m such a bastard.. supposedly to be only my problems but it jus affect others.. why should ppl care abt mi when i don even cherish the things or friends that is around mi -

"u can onli be happy when u wan to be happy" - thats wat my teacher say b4... as for mi...i realised my repeated complains abt life wun help at all.. it jus makes mi more sad.. honestly i hardly make any effort to make myself happy.. the greatest change in mi which i regret the most is actually my pessimistic character... really no more.. i will revert it to optimism no matter wad...

i sincerely apologised to my that friend... i hope u wun hate mi becos of what has happened.. its ok if u cant forgive mi.. i will be also ultra angry if i put myself in ur shoes..

i m really sorry..

insults

2006-08-16T23:44:00.000+08:00

today.. alot of ppl insulted mi.. inculding one of my best fren, patel.. quite disappointing... my mood dampen down so much.. i dun wish to tok abt the insults.. too sensitive.. i m now so tired -mentally and physically. if u guys feel like insulting mi again... Get lost! - as far as possible. i don wish to hear anything. i m really really tired...

ppl... if u see mi having a good time/life.. u are wrong! i m really very vexed... everyday i have to worry for many things.. honestly i still haven recover from my set-backs.. still trying very hard.. trying to forget the sad things in the past... everyday i try to look happy..as if nth has happen..but inside mi... i felt very troubled.. i wish time can heal.. i wish it will be erased from my memory... actually, i should concentrating on my studies..but i keep on distract myself with other things..sounds stupid isnt it?

i feel awful.. i cant say out wat i wan..and i don really deserve wat i wan....

2006-08-15T00:26:00.000+08:00

Christina Aguilera - Ain´t No Other Man

video of the day!

2006-08-14T23:42:00.000+08:00

today was my unlucky day... i lost my fav *limited edition* loy fatt p.e. t shirt on the way home cos i hang it beside my bag...it dropped.. had to go back the long way to the bus stop to find it.. damm pissed and tiring.. (carrying my heavy bag in the process to and fro) i managed to find it at the bridge where i used to walk on..spent like 35 mins finding it..damm it...

in the morning, miss huang -my ct.. keep saying our class did very badly...quite true lar.. and quite unlucky too... most of my classmates 's parent have to see the subject heads on the meet-the-parent-session... damm suay.. some even nid to see the principal cos they did ultra badly.. damm unlucky sia.. actually i find wat my teacher said was true... "when u really wan something, u will definitely make/find/create time for it..." this theory applies to lots of things.. (like lets say if i m busy.. but i wish to watch stephanie sun concert..i will heck care no matter wad find time for it..) alot of my friends when asked to do sth keep saying "no time! where got time... " then in the end..they end up sleeping at home or caught doing meaningless stuff..from my experiences, tell them also no use.. they will still heck unless they really wan to do it. so no pt forcing though sometimes u may wan them to be enthu in something...

u can say that i m stupid... for i sometimes listen to my friends and help them in all ways... which i can actually heck care and jus bother my own business.. why? its all jus abt the attitude in treating others.. i believe if i treat other good one day...the other will treat mi good also..( ...although it is like so seldomly happened...alot of ppl treat mi like shit! wa kaoz...) i hate ppl who made use of mi... do this do that..and jus say a "thank you goodbye" thats it! i somehow can sense the other person..trying to think that "haha! seng yong is so stupid... do so much"..totally insincere and not show any appreaciation...

then when i try to heck one time... ppl will say things like A "ok fine! u good... treat mi like tat rite! i pay u double next time..." totally took mi for granted.. as if it is compulsory for mi to help them do things like dat.. instead of saying B "nvm, its ok..i try to find other ppl's help" most if the time .. A is actually what i hear most from others... as for B.. i don even remember when is the last time ppl can actually say that..

crap lar.. life screwed up... nid to screwed it back down...

2006-08-13T00:19:00.000+08:00

great! i m back.. this time i wun abandon my blog again.... really. after lots of (to the power of infinity) things has happened, it really took mi quite alot of time to settle down... the period of pain, anguish, anger, craziness and sianness will be soon over.. sometimes i m jus abit bored, lazy to entertain myself.. instead, i go and irritate ppl.. tats y these few mths down with super bad luck (bad karma sia).. i dun wan to list out all the bad stuff that happened cos i think it gonna filled up the whole page... haha

i love to say life's a bitch.. cos it never turn to be as wonderful as i think. lolz.. suan le.. no pt complaining . time to blog real stuff.

hmm..what did i do today?

omg..nothing...

haha.. eat, sleep, watch tv

aniwae, today my brother brought a new gf to home...damm fat.. i wonder what happen to the ex.. i think he is really a b******.. i tok to the "ex"-gf...and she doesnt even know anything abt the new gal and say she was still in a relationship with my bro.. obviously..my brother was playing with her.. really too much.. but for these kind of things..i rather not to blurt out anything... too hurtful... soon..she duno anything and gonna be dumped soon or later.. quite sad.. i find her character quite not bad. although she maybe not nice-looking but overall, i think she is better quality than my bro.. haiz... being dumped is not nice after all..lolz... especially after one has done alot on the other.. few days ago...i went shopping with farhan, jialin and gang. i saw this couple.......omg.. suddenly felt so jealous.....extremely jealously.. both so nice-looking and somemore so intimate.

my second brother once told mi that he is gona find another partner who is uglier than himself. why? do you think if u have better quality than others, u have more chances to dump others and less chances to get dumped? actually if u think carefully..its quite logically.. the other partner may like you more and it will incurred more losses if he/she dump you. this is called "deterence"...haha...learnt from social studies. is to let the other partner think twice before going thru a break...as a result it will maintain a form of loyalty.. for example..like "will i find a better looking gf/bf in future if i dump him or her?" it may be agrued that character is the most important thing to look for in the partner.. but afterall ..appearance is always more appealing and make up the most impression. tats y we see on the road alot of pretty gf with ugly bf, vice versa.

haha...actually i m toking crap..lolz... its up to you to think abt it. well..tadah! blog finished. blog more next time!

pics of the day!

RE-APPEARANCE

2006-06-21T23:49:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone!! super super srry... many many many many things have happened.. i was in a emotional distress, tats y i was ignoring alots of things.... but now i am ok le! holidays gona end soon le.. super sad.. when sch reopens, it gona be common test period. i m so looking forward to it..haha. but don misunderstand, i didnt mug at all...lolz.. jus excited abt it tats all..haha..mad rite? this holiday to mi is the worst holiday ever... totally un-holiday-like. especially the syf practice... sux! totally caused the destruction of mi.. i couldnt concentrate much on my studies becos of that.. if my common test screwed up...i gona wrack that principal, mrs lim's ass... wat a biatch. went so many practices..and in the end learn so few things.. wat a waste of my time..

i dare to say she is a bitch.. say wat important to the sch... MY FOOT AR! i bet she jus trying to keep all the credits to herself... say wad "oh..our students has done our sch proud..blah blah" all kinds of crap.. i am damm fed up with syf.. haiz.. and u noe wad? we gona wear a ugly uniform for the day.. is like so old biang... the shirt is like those lao uncle go play golf wear one. and the shoes is those "bata" kind one.. plus a cap. oh gosh.. damm paiseh... i tot we can wear the "team SAJC" shirt, argh... this is so unlucky... srry abt complaining so much.. cos i m really think the syf is quite stupid..

the onli thing good abt this holis is i can sleep sleep sleep...hehe.. and daydream.. actually both is like the same thing. when i sleep i will dream...lolz.. i had many dreams.. nightmare < dreams*.. lucky.. haha.. i jus hope life is like a dream...haha. that will be so nice. currently, i m trying to escape from the reality nightmare..lolz

i will update constantly sia... wun go missing again..lolz unless i m kidnapped by other ppl...lolz

pic of the day...

this is rain , the korean superstar

wonder wat has got into my friend's mind...

she keep idolizing this... person

hmm.. wats so special abt him?

ahem ahem... cough*

2006-05-20T13:49:00.000+08:00

omg..haha! almost ten days i have not updated! record broken! i m so lazy..lolz..aniwae, there was so many things to tok abt - rugby match, ictalent..blah..blah..

rugby match- this is my first time watching a sport match! haha..and it was so fun...and exciting. i tot sajc gona lose to rjc..cos rj is really very strong..everyone's expression was like so sad..haha..it looks like they are betting money 4d, toto, or soccer but nv win anything..lolz..all are like so dead..when rjc score 2 goals. when the score was like sa:rj 3:10, everyone tot "aiya..lose le lose le. haha..no hope le" and dunno wat happen..it was like miracle, sa scores another 2 goals in the last ten mintues..so close shave...haha..rjc ppl face was like so black..when they lost..haha. (15 : 10) SAJC won rugby championship finally after 17 years!! it was so incredible...

ictalent- aiyo..it was one of the louiest singing competition i ever went..lolz. only the guest performer RONIN was so cool! especially the lead gutarist, wear until so cool and play until so zai. the results of the competition was so unexpected! the lousiest turn out be the champion while the nice performer turn out to be the last! omg...who is the judge? it was Lee Si song! plus another campus superstar judge..wat lousy judgements they have made..lolz.. aniwae congrats to jia min for winning second place for band category. ur singing is so nice..lolz.

lastly there was one thing that i wana tok abt..which is wat happen the chapel thingy in sch..the chaplin was so propagandistic... y in the first place mus tok SO MUCH about the da vinci code? fact or fiction isnt suppose for us to decide? wat a great move.. loudly said it was all fake... including the the gospel of judas. scared so much for wad? lolz.. when u are so anti-da vinci, ppl are so irritated by u..lolz..y mus do this? discourage ppl from watching movie? the goodness of a religion is jus to spread its moral values, y bother so much abt whether is a fact or fiction? does it matter? the ans is so obvious. i jus hate ppl who preach..so irritating. if anyone of u here..dare to preach mi...i k u in the next min....hahas..

oh well, update more soon. same time same channel. stay tunned for more..lolz

pic of the day!

scandal

2006-05-10T23:41:00.000+08:00

lolz...sorry guys..long time nv blog le... guilty.

today i was damm lucky to hear many scandals in my co..lolz. it was so juicy.. i love scandals..(excluding my scandals), it is like so damm nice to hear. especially the bad stuff abt ppl. lolz.. JUICY! dark..secrets of ppl i like to hear also... but sometimes it is like very hard to squeeze those secrets out from the ppl... haha. no worry..if u ppl here have no secret to share, then dun fear abt mi..lolz.. i wun squeeze sth which is empty..haha.

yesterday i went to science centre.. it was like so fun cos i can skip the stupid loy fatt cheering thingy.. mi and patel were playing in the water world...haha..like kids.. i was all drenched...all becos of christine..lolz...she push mi inside the water fountain..and i had no choice but to ran thru it... in the end when i went inside the science centre..i was like so freezing cold..in the air-con environment. imagine u are all wet and u go inside a air-conditioned place... i bet u will freeze to death...

initially, our class went for the imax movie - the stupid dinosaur... then it was so boring..stupid plot + lousy animation.. haha..totally waste of money..best part is actually when i was trying to climb the stairs up and find my seat..lolz..cos it was like so dark...and i couldnt see the stairs..lolz but it was like so fun..hahas

in the end, my class went to KFC to eat..it was so tired... and i sit mrt from jurong to bishan... 45 mins long! lolz..of cos i slept in the train..

pic of the day!

haha..put tis becos my friend loves da chang jin..lolz

chem spa....

2006-05-06T16:33:00.000+08:00

stupid chem spa...hate it.. i mug for like? 3 hrs? studying from BC1 to Bc4...and in the end make one stupid mistake in the spa test.. wat the fish.....awww........

i felt so awful... y when i wan to do sth perfect...in the end will become like crap...argh

hardworking does not produce fantastic result!!!!!!

crap....

stress

2006-05-04T20:35:00.000+08:00

haiz...how cum these few days no mood to blog ar? i have like nothing to write... it was so xianz.. plus the boring sch work....

There's a bold spirit within mi who want to get out ...i wan to have an adventure. i want to feel rejuvenated. i want an escape from the competitive and stressful environment.... i wan alot of things...

but look at the sch! it is like hell.... dun wan to say le

next time update more ba...

17th Birthday!

2006-04-30T23:44:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MI! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MI! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SENG YONG.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MI!

YEA! haha... thanx ppl.. for all ur wishes. i like it very much...lolz. today dorothy and ernest also had the same birthday as mi.. All the april 30th babies rox! lolz.

today, mi , ray and my family went to jumbo and eat. i was so pik chik, cos i go and book the restaurant in the afternoon, then at night i call the restaurant, they say dun have my name! then later they check check check... "oh ya...have have have"..i was like "wat the fish". lolz ...well aniwae, i was quite happy cos got my favourite chilli crab to eat..lolz, then my bro brought mi the swensen cake...lolz. mi and ray keep playing with the dry ice! haha... we put it in the water...and the gaseous smoke evolved... we suck the smoke with straw and puff it out like cigarette smoke..haha... in the end..we were so full and tired...and we went home...ZZzzzz.

Here all
my birthday wishes !!
1) get fantastic results for promo exams! haha..
2) more money...everyone strike lottery..lolz
3) more friends!
4) pass my nafa test
5) be more smarter!
6) be more happy!
7) everyone happy also!
7) secret*...dun wan to say..lolz!

so greedy rite? haha.. anyway yup..tats all.

birthday celebration

2006-04-28T23:53:00.000+08:00

today i m very happy!!!

my class, 06s12, celebrated an early birthday for mi and tiffany. i m so touched...cos my class bought my favourite durian cake~ it taste ultra good! next week is yue xing bdae.. hope she manage to come back sch to join us. Her eye injury has caused her to "pon" *haha.. sch for two weeks..poor thing... i m sure our class would help her out in her hmk and studies.

aniwae..i received tons and tons of hmk today... + one stupid gp project. (jus to earn that pathetic two marks?). ok its sounds...cheapskate... 2/100 to reward the gp group...for CA1. and the group will be working like mad becos of that 2 marks. i dun think i will be able to finish the hmk on time... so stressed.. then sunday is my birthday..and i m still being tortured with the loads of work... i felt guilty not able to accompany my ultra-good friend on msn.. i planned to chat with him but have to consider the amount of hmk to do.. jc life is so stressful... i cant do the things i wan...like? playing computer games.. i almost 2 months nv play com games liao...i have no life at all...haiz.. my results were not that fantastic and for like the whole 2 months, i looked so nerdy. i think is time for a change...BIG CHANGE.

wait and see...

pic of the day!
lolz...i decided to buy a crumpler bag..so i put up tis pic..haha

sch...wootz!

2006-04-25T22:29:00.000+08:00

haha....today i received back my gp essay...failed! haha.. expected. i did that within 30 min... how to pass? today was quite a normal day..lolz.. except gp lesson. mi and my friends were discussing who is a playgal? who is a playboy..lolz. To my astonishment, i found out that my class is too playgal..playboy liao..anyhow pick one person, he/she can say how many bf /gf they have b4... we were also looking at cindy's BBQ pics.. lolz. she loves her darren too much liao... but mi and melissa thinks that darren does not suit her..lolz. aiyo..i m too kaypoh le..dun tok abit it..Then later when we are in the com lab, patel keep looking at those hot babes (bollywood stars!) pics..cannot tahan him..then later he deleted the internet history..lolz! no use de lar..i can tell everyone..lolz. aniwae.. 2mr no lecture and lesson! yeah! it will be jus sport day..and go home early..can slack liao..

today i passed my friend, kailing a birthday present .... and i also drew this birthday card pic for her.

i m so evil rite...draw her until so fat and fierce..lolz

aniwae my drawing sucks..lolz

kindergarten standard~~~

co concert

2006-04-22T21:00:00.000+08:00

phew...its over.. co concert has ended smoothly.. at least no bad le.. got some audience to watch..lolz

break for one week! yea...

Aniwae, thanks for all the friends who come and support mi!! SO HAPPY>>>

well.. if u ppl have read my blog.... this stupid "weird" feeling keep goin on... tats y i screwed up alot of things.. ( didnt mean to ps friends, but in the end duno y i have ps-ed friends, get scolded by ppl around me and many more..). then sometimes , when my friend tell mi to go out, i kept stoning, doing nth, wat happen ar????? sometimes i can even stone in front of a tv!! tats y i keep saying i duno wat m i doin. my body is there..but my soul can be in another place...

guys ..if u all think that i ps-ing u... ( i didnt do it on purpose.....) , i apologised... is jus that these few days i wasnt paying any attention... keep on day-dreaming. maybe i m too stressed le.....

i dun care le..i mus get rid of this "stoning" habit.

weird weird feeling...

2006-04-20T18:39:00.000+08:00

the "weird weird" feeling...keep coming.. i duno y. i jus feel weird.. happy? no.. depressed? no.. the mood is also quite unsure. sth is affecting me..but again i duno wat is it. i always hate tis kind of "weird weird" feeling.... its quite xianz. and when my friends are tokin to me, i somehow didnt pay any attention. And when i wan to tok to my friends, the conversation always end fast. cos that "weird weird" feeling, i lost my sense of humour..and slowly i m start to feel very blur... like today gp lesson like tt.. ppl's powerpoint file can open, but only mine cannot..wat the fish?

wat is it.. the feeling always tells mi that sth really bad gona happen..

hope the feeling will fade away quickly...

aniwae, 2mr gona be co performance le.. quite worried and nervous. i was sad also...
my friends are apologising to mi that they cant go..... my confidence level dropped so dramatically....haiz.. nvm. i already said it b4.. ppl hardly support co.

oh well...gtg do my hmk.. here is the pic of the day!

picture day

2006-04-16T18:02:00.000+08:00

This kitty was found at basement of my HDB flat. my brother took its pic..(and now i m stealing his pic to blog here..lolz)

this kitty is always so lazy...kitty! wake up..lolz

og birthday!

2006-04-15T15:41:00.000+08:00

OG BIRTHDAY!! YEAH!

yesterday after co, i went to marina to eat steamboat. i bought a swensen mango cake for everyone in my og... and they all like it very much (happy~=) we went on crapping lots of stuff (tok abt doggy, scandals..and many many more..lolz). It was also yi xiang and steph birthday... they were so happy...lolz. and later we use chopstick to cut the cake since we have no knife..haha! imagine using chopstick to cut cake..how horrible it will be..but it is damm funny... then later we all use our spoons to eat the cake. Leqi and kailing were ultra nice as both of them helped mi to bbq my food. i helped to eat! lolz! btw, maurice and yuda gave steph a banana for her birthday present cos of "banana man"..lolz. i was so surprised and it was damm hilarious. Banana as birthday present, first time hearing it...lolz. aniwae. we all eat and eat and eat and eat...and drink and drink and drink and drink until we are so full... after that, kailiang, steph , leqi, yi xiang and leqi's friend(lolz..forgot her name..srry) and me left the place first while the rest (hh, maurice, yuda, xiu hui and cynthia continue to eat and eat and eat..lolz... (it seems like hungry ghost festival instead of good friday..lolz..jk jk..). we went home after that...so tired..

i love my og very much and i definitely wun forget my this nice clique of friends. hope we still can have more outing next time...

band...ur attitude sux..

2006-04-13T23:38:00.000+08:00

for all those ppl out there....pls heed my advice..i STRONGLY ENCOURGE TO THINK TWICE BEFORE GOING THE SAJC BAND CONCERT!!

at first i tot band ppl are a group of ultra-nice , friendly and humble musicians....but wat i experienced today has totally changed my impression of them. they are jus a bunch unethical, imature and arrogant (musicians? they are not fit to be musicans...) ppl. If the band is so great, y mus use such despicable method of "dispromoting" our CO concert to promote ur own concert? know wat is courtesy? know wat is respect? dunno? check ur own dictionary...

if u (band ppl) think u can play good music, attract ur audience with ur own real talent. Resorting to underhand methods onli prove that u ppl are jus unethical.. "co tickets sux...so wad is $5, look at our quailty of our band ticket! is so much better than co's.. and we are performing at changi airport...so high class, aniwae band music is of cos so much better than co's, don go for co one, go for our band one!" ---- look at wat one of the band ppl has said today... judge urself.. (irked mi...)

i do not wan to comment further... the experience totally perturbed mi...

pure laziness

2006-04-12T01:14:00.000+08:00

i felt so tired today...slept during maths tutorial. haiz...stupid econs test..tot nid to study alot. and then it come out an essay qns. But..luckily, at least can manage. wa...today is the longest day i ever experience. time passed so slowly..can die one u noe. so many hmk again. wo de ming hen ku...helpzzz..

blog more another time.. cos i m too lazy le. haha..

self-reflection...

2006-04-10T20:34:00.000+08:00

today, i look at myself in the mirror. Ultimately shocked and emotionally disturbed. ok yes.. i m becoming uglier and uglier le...ageing at a young age...lolz. reason due to lack of sleep and extreme stress. haiz... who wans a stressful lifestyle aniwae.. argh...don care..now mus focus on slack more now..lolz

oh ya...the nafa test is coming. haiz.. whether i have 2 months extra NS or not..depends on it
12.50 for running 2.4km , 4 pulls up ( heng ar...), 220cm for SBJ (no kick!) , 10s + for shuttle (aiya..my grandfather also can do it.) , 42 sit-up (for 30s? lolz..too hao lian le) . wat i fear most is the running. i m a slow-poke runner. ok..to u ppl who are reading my blog..ok lah..is chicken feet for u lah.

oh well..2mr got econs test..hope i can do well. MUG MUG MUG!!! and u ppl TAG TAG TAG!!!..lolz

i wan a break...

2006-04-06T16:21:00.000+08:00

srry ppl...there are too many things to do le...so nv update blog. haiz.. hope to go for a vacation immdiately..lolz. honestly, i don like my cca lah. - chinese orchestra. especially my co teacher.. once i nv go co, she will call my phone for 5 times! if nv reach, she will call my hse..and maybe my mother's hp..wat the fish? co concert is coming...and she expect us to sell every ticket we had. i personally think that is totally impossible.. in the first place, the co sux...(sorry for being rude but i have to say..) the song we played were those "children and grandfather" songs which many ppl don like...Nobody will like to go co concert one..they rather go band concert or some other performing groups. co concert? no way... and my teacher(madam hwee) tot that the cultural centre will be filled up with audiences. fat hope!

co is already so unpopular liao...and i don think ppl will glue themselves to the chair and listen to the whole concert.

i m passionate in playing my fav erhu...and toking abt co music is another thing liao...

=) Zhi Yang won!!

2006-04-03T17:32:00.000+08:00

At first i thought Teresa would win the competition..haiz..bad too bad..she was too off-form. i mus really admit zhi yang is very talented in singing ( too Tao -tzish). When he sang that "superwoman", i was totally shocked..Teresa also used her choir to help her..(WRONG decision...the choir sux manz...ruined the whole thing..haha) Then when zhi yang sang that Lian Ai Da Ren, my brother who was watching the tv..duno y feel so jealous..lolz. oh ya...Forget abt renfred... he sux lah.. he has a charming look onli...vocal? nah..

when i was watching that campus superstar...i saw that stupid RI nerdy guy...YUCKS! my mother says she saw him b4 in j8 and he looked damm UGLY... without make-up..i bet his pimples will be shown all over his ugly face.. ( i scared i will be beaten up by his fans..lolz..eh wait a min...i bet no one votes for him..haha) more pics here...

guys..remember to tag tag tag! lolz.

SYF training starts

2006-03-31T22:23:00.000+08:00

today was such a ultra boring day....i received so many ger--zillion hmks...xianz. (especially physicis...45 kinematics qns) Total Xianness!!! srry og 13 for not going dinner with u ppl..cos i have syf training. - which was so dumb. Initially, when the sky started raining, we were so damm happy and tot that the training was canceled. However, the instructor told us to move to the hall :( no escape for us... well, the training was easy. There was only simple drills. Boring...
Farhan, Zhi cong and Edmumd were in the team also. Farhan was damm enthu..cos he is from the uniform group b4. Arggh.. how i wish not to participate.

aniwae, edric (if u are reading tis)..try not to sleep so late k?..is bad for ur health u noe.

time for sleep...ZZzzz

Everyday is a happy day

2006-03-30T14:54:00.000+08:00

cant believe my life is so suay... got so many things to handle at one time... Co practices...phy rep duty..+ SYF! haiz... i don wan my weekends being eaten up by sch activites... moreover, my position as a phy rep. was torturing. Mr Mannam wanted mi to get an A for alevel phy and he said "None of my phy rep got a B for their A level..so you better don break the tradition." Omg.. how m i suppose to handle so many things. Btw, he is quite pro lah...jus that he always gives alot of hmk (extra one) for us to do... this weekends mus do 30 more kinematics phy questions...wat the fish? ok..i shall not let all tis things affect my mood...everyday is a happy day :) -remember to tag tag tag hor!!

Official Blog launch day!!!

2006-03-28T22:58:00.000+08:00

so happy again :) i m trying to link as many ppl as i can... u noe..new blog..muz have audience first..lolz. Aniwae, today i have ny old cg outing at plaza sing. sth weird happened today..lolz. while my friends were in the toilet cubicles...somebody ( a 30+ years old man) peeped at them. Before my friend unzipped his pants... he saw a guy face on top of the sidedoor..yucks. So unbelievable...this thing can actually happen in plaza sing. The pervert guy run away after that.. aww.. By the way, maurice today is so funny...within 2 hrs..he can go toilet for 4 times! i think he should get pampers lah...lol..jus joking. In the end, our cg went to have neoprint. imagine 16 ppl squeezed together to have our neoprint...lolz. terrence tay was there..complaining that his face cannot be seen..it was so funny but memorable.

gtg..well ppl out there...pls link mi up and tag tag tag too...lolz

New Beginning!!!

2006-03-27T18:42:00.000+08:00

ello everyone =) i had finished creating my new bloggy! so happy... everyone pls tag tag tag!!!